I honestly have so many doubts about my boyfriend. Like I don’t ever talk about it to anyone because I feel so stupid about it, but I really do.. He has hurt me so many times in the past (before we were together) and I often find myself sitting and thinking about all of the nights I stayed up until 3am crying over him. It’s just so crazy to me that I waited around for 5 years and just as I was about to give up on him, boom he finally wakes up and realizes I’ve been in front of him the entire time. I constantly find myself thinking about what I would do if he ever cheated on me or stupid things like that and I hate it. Like I almost want to talk to him about it, but at the same time I’m not sure if it would be the right thing to do. I just don’t know what to do. He has already mentioned a few times about how sorry he is for all the things he has put me through in the past, how sorry he is that it took so long for him to realize I was “the one” and how glad he is that I stuck around, but I just feel like all of this is way too good to be true.. God I hate over thinking. So much.
I’ve never wanted to kiss you as much as I did yesterday like I woke up thinking about it. I just wanted to be in your arms, just you holding me. I’ve never wanted that so much.